DATED : Thursday, September 2, 2010
TITLED:
TIMED: 5:03 AM
I give up, I'm tired. I really wanna rest.
I'm sick and tired.
I'm sick and tired of repetitive things.
I wanna close my ears.
I wanna shut this world out.
The family I have would never exist.
I don't want this life.
Whoever who gave me it, TAKE IT BACK.
I didn't say I wanted it in the first place.
Parents that quarrel practically every day?
A brother who couldn't care less what the fcuking hell are you doing?
Parents that condemn every single step you make?
Parents that say you owe them for that concert you went to?
Parents that fricking couldn't care less on how you feel?
Or how damn hard you studied, how damn hard you worked, and said that you've been playing?
Wth.
You know what?
The only thing I thank God for are my friends.
They are the only people who actually care for me now.
Without ranking you based on results.
This world's crumbling around me.
The shell around me isn't here anymore.
I feel vulnerable.
I wanna huddle up to a corner.
Where no one sees.
No one knows me.
No one
cares.
Crying has never felt so good in my life.
Ever.
Before.